the ball is rolling...

Seven of us drove to Pahang 4 days ago. Attending a programme and at the same time getting support for our 'career boost'. From Kuantan to Temerloh then to Bentong. Spent a nite there before left for Lipis, then straight to KL. Attending another programme and introducing ourselves to new crowds. The next day stayed in KL. Meeting people, setting up plans, putting up plastic smile 24 hours, learning about strategies. Very tiring but had no choice. There's no turning back in this game. Left KL after lunch and headed to Seremban. Met new and old friends. It was lovely. Then drove back to Perak. Tried to rest but Yaya couldn't wait to chat. just finished chatting with her.. All about the reunion. We vowed not to organise any reunion anymore! it is rather frustrating and time consuming. Have the whole day tomorow, oops today (it's already passed midnite anyway) to unpack, do the laundry, then repack.

Will shoot up north on thursday. Will stay there just for a couple of days before going back to KL for the weekend. Busy and exhausting, but fun is still there... hmm....whatever it takes to win...

TWOgether again!

Yahoo!!!! Just got great news from my friends. TWO great news actually. My best friend Shida is coming back to Perak! Yipppiiiieeeee!!!!! And we will be working in the same place! Thank you God! Thank you for this wonderful news!

Shida and i knew each other during our uni years. We studied together for nearly 6 years. Then both of us got job offer in Perak, but different district. We seldom saw each other during the first 3 years, until she asked for transfer to my district to live with her unwell mom. We became very very close after that. Both of us love sushi and coffee. Every month after our payday, we would make a date for sushi king and coffee bean. We would hang around for hours with lots of juicy gossips. We always helped (and still are actually) each other in every aspect including financial problem. Then she got married. I became her wedding planner. My first attempt of being a wedding planner. It all happened in a month of April 3 years ago. later that year she moved to Johor following the husband. I was crushed. No more sushi and coffee partner. No more sounding board. No more friend to laugh and to cry with. Nevertheless, we still see each other, about twice a year whenever she came home to visit her mom. When she called me last night and told me this smashing news, i was on top of the hill. I'm getting back my life. Can't wait for January to come where we will be colleagues.

And this morning, R called me. Currently she is working in town K. And she just got her transfer. Starting January, she would be working in my town. Now i have TWO sushi buddies! TWO coffee lovers! TWO great friends! TWO good TWO be true huh?! Just my luck! ;D

blur!

It's a blurry day for me... It is all because of conjunctivitis (i hope i spell it right). Just my luck huh? I should go out with friends catch a movie or have coffe or window shopping or something.. After all i'm on holidays.. but what do i get? Sore eyes... Pasrah je lah...

Actually it all started with sore throat. It wasn't severe at first, but fever was about to kick in.. I took 2 tablets of actifast to get rid of it. Survived one night, but the next day my throat felt as if it was on fire. It felt hot like there was flame in my throat. And swallowing was the hardest and most painful thing to do! Still i managed to attend a few meetings, visit P who finally delivered her first baby (through operation) and even go partying with my friends. All happened in a weekend. Came monday i refused to talk and eating was hard. That nite after dinner with some friends, i went straight to the clinic and got myself some medicine - antibiotics, painkillers, panadols, cough syrup and chewy tablets to unflame my throat. I slept soundlessly that nite.

However, i got another test from God. My left eye was sticky and i really had to wash it before i could open it. Oh no! i was hit by conjunctivitis! But i had to go to work! Darn! So i dragged myself to the office, get a few things done. Later, attended a few discussions and before heading home i stopped by a clinic. Nope, not last nite's clinic (malu! hahaha)

And before i hit the bed i realised that my right eye was also getting reddish! What else after this God? Hmmm.. maybe u want me to reflect my life and rest more at home? Ok ok will do that.
So today, me without contact lenses, without glasses (i dont have one anyway) am having blurry eyesight, am leading a blurry life and am dwelling in a blurry world!

baby blues

Bulan ni bulan orang bersalin. Bulan ketibaan insan baru. Bulan bermulanya episod hidup bayi-bayi kecil. Alhamdulillah bertambahnya umat islam di muka bumi ni...

A good friend of mine, J delivered a baby boy last wednesday. Her fifth! Gosh, and i am still husbandless! haha... From the last time i spoke and texted her, both mummy and baby were well. She hadn't found a name for her baby yet. I suggested a few names with wonderful islamic meanings. Got them thru the search engine, google! hehehe... I told her that i would announce to our friends in FB about her newborn but she asked me not to. Somehow she was quite embarrassed for being too productive. Silly girl! A lot of us envy her for the rezeki Allah granted her and her family. She's the lucky one!

Another friend is F. She waited nearly 10 years for Muhammad Fareez Iskandar. Her first is already 14 years old! Dah jadi anak bujang! While the second is 9 or maybe 10 years old. I went to see Baby Is today. He was gorgeous! Fair, chubby with very thick hair! Welcome Baby Is.. Your life won't be a bed of roses. There will be bumps here and there. You might stumble but you will survive. Your mom will be there to guide you. Hakuna matata darling!

As for P, she is overdue now. She was supposed to deliver on the sixth but still no sign of the new life. Hmm.. i should give her a call tomorrow and see how she is doing. I'm pretty sure she is freaking out for this is her first newborn. Hope everything is well for her... Insyaallah...

aku, mak dan milo ais

Mak is my favourite person... Milo ais is my favourite drink... Plus me, we make a wonderful team, a great combination.. hehe... Ever since i installed internet at home and became a blogger, i seldom go out anymore.... One, becoz my nightlife is fading due to my shringking circle of friends. Two, becoz i am usually busy during day time so i can only online at night. Three, becoz i just want to be alone in my orange world. Due to this change of lifestyle and my obsession of the virtual life, (which is not healthy at all, i can assure u that!) i always find excuses whenever my parents ask me to join them having dinner outside. M always ask them to tapau instead. seldom food, usually iced milo or milo ais. mak always grumbled 'why can't u make one urself instead of paying RM1.60 to those people'. And my answer was the usual 'malas la mak...' hehe...

Thus, sometimes she comes back without milo ais but then she quickly makes one for me! And other times, she does like what she did tonite - again my parents wanted to eat out. My brother was paying. I had just switched on my laptop. Then mak came to my room. She opened the door just slightly. I could only see half of her body. Out of courtesy she asked me whether i would like to join them for dinner. I said 'no thanks. not tonite.' Then patiently she asked whether i would like anything from the restaurant? I answered ' nothing. Errr.. just milo ais'. suddenly she opened the door wider. I was speechless! She had a glass of milo ais with her! She smiled, handed my fav drink to me and jockingly said ' u should pay me RM1.60'... hahahahaha... I was touched. I was grateful. I was delighted. This is not the first time she did it, but everytime she does it, i am overwhelmed by her thoughtful motherly gesture.

Sheepishly i took the drink and enjoyed every sip of it! I love milo ais. I love my mak more! But i am not a good daughter to her... I make her cry at times... I dont mean it, i swear! I just have to try harder to understand her and treat her better. Sorry mak for all the tears i've caused u! Thanx mak for the milo ais and for every sweet thing u do for me. I love u mak, i really do! I love us!

There's no one...

How do u differentiate between best friends, close friends and good friends? What makes them, them? How should they perform to show that they are your best/close/good friends? What ecpectations do u have on them? Is it wrong at all to expect them to do things that u know normal friends won't do for u? And when they fail to do exactly what u expect them to do, who's to be blamed?

R and I have been best/close/good friends for 9 years now. We have always been together.. Many people mistaken us as sisters. They always mix us up. We've gone through a lot of things together.. So when this lies/fitnah bout me is been spreading around, i expect her to stand by me, to prevail the truth on my behalf, to be brave enough to risk things on my behalf... because i know i would do the same for her.. but she disappoint me. She's 'playing safe' with everything. Making sure that she wouldn't be pulled along in the mess i'm in. If i couldn't rely on her, who's supposed to be my best/close/good friend, then to whom should i turn to? How do i classify her now? But one thing for sure, no more expectations... not even on my 'sister'.

I AM ON MY OWN. I'M WALKING ALONE. NO ONE IS HOLDING MY HAND. NO ONE IS WALKING BESIDE ME. THERE'S NO ONE BEHIND ME EITHER... I'M ALL ALONE.