tak cool ke?

I watch Malay movies. I watch Malay dramas. I listen to Malay songs. Tak cool ke kalau I associate myself dgn malay stuff?

I hung out with this girl the other day. It wasn't the first time we hung out together eventhough we don't do it often enough. Anyway, this friend of mine had gone to the US a few times. so, bila cakap pun ada accent sana la skit... tapi, lantak dia la kan... Eventhough my pronunciation is very malaysian, everybody in this country still understands me kan? Lainlah kalau I tinggal kat NZ ke, jadi warga Uncle Sam ke, jadi ozzie ke...

Anyway, sometimes I ajak dia tengok wayang.. Syarat dia, bukan cerita melayu. Kekadang bila sembang pasal some malay dramas kat TV, dia mmg tak tau pape coz dia tak tengok. I dont think she has any liking on the malay singers or actors jugak... The thing is, SHE IS A MALAY!!! Ok, fine.. Memang la tak sume citer melayu bagus kan? I mean pilihlah yg berkualiti sikit like Yasmin Ahmad's and Kabir Baktiar's. Kerja diorang memang indisputably superb and beautiful. In fact there are more talented young directors blooming nowadays. Surprisingly, I enjoyed 'Selamat Pagi Cinta' more than 'The Day The Earth Stood Still' (Harap muka Keanu Reeves je hensem! Hampeih!). And there are also some Malay dramas yang very moving like 'Pondok Buruk' and others that I can't recall the titles. There are heaps of funny ones too like 'Sinderella', 'Rona Roni Makaroni'. Eventhough they are not that excellent, they are entertaining enough for you to remain glued on the screen.

Oh, and I just love Anuar Zain's songs, am mystified by Meet Uncle Hussein, spellbounded by M. Nasir and I really enjoy listening to Aizat, Estranged and Siti Nurhaliza. I believe they are all marvellous! Well, at least to my ears..!

To me... kalau Melayu tak sokong Melayu, sape lagi? Kita punyalah mengagung-agungkan product barat, diorang kenal kita pun tidak, apa lagi nak beli cd penyanyi kita or tengok wayang cerita kita. Tak mungkin...

So, Melayu kenalah sokong Melayu kan? Malaysians kenalah sokong Malaysians kan?

Apa, tak cool ke?

dumbfounded

F is sick. He's a good friend of mine and he's sick. He got dengue. He was admitted since monday. He didn't even tell me! I dont know why...

When I got back from kelantan (before I got really sick), I called him. I had been thinking about him for a couple of weeks. Had meant to call him and ask him how he was doing much earlier but work always got in the way. The last time I met him was during raya in september. After that we were supposed to dine together. He promised to treat me steamboat at Johnny's, but we never got around to that. F and I, well.... we are not romantically involved.. but.. I don't know... He can be awfully annoying at times but he's a good man. I like to bully him and he let me. I guess he finds me annoying as well.. hehehe.. Despite the irritation, we tolerate each other. I remember when Acheh was hit by the tsunami, I wanted to go and help the victims. I was this close of signing up my name but he didn't let me. It wasn't that I asked for his permission. I only told him about my intention but he was really opposed to it. He said don't ask him why but he didn't want me to go. I refused to listen to him at first and that led us to a big raw. He claimed that I always underestimated him, that his say, his words were never good enough for me. According to him, I did not treat him fairly and I was a stuck up bit*h (well he used nicer words actually but the meaning is just the same!). We were not in speaking terms for months. But I didn't go to Acheh, and after a while we were back being friends and understood each other more.. Maybe that is why he always has this special place in my world.

So I called him last friday to have breakfast with me.. In a way I missed him. He was home and was busy preparing the house for his sister's enggagement, thus declined for a short break with me. I would have to find time to drag him to have food with me one of these days. That was what I had in mind. So, I got a shock of my life when our friend, P, told me about his illness. I called him this morning, he refused to answer. I couldn't visit him earlier for I had a meeting in Taiping. I planned to see him at the hospital tonite. I would drop by and get fruits, biscuits and some magazines for him. Such was my plan and I was sure he would like it. Furthermore, P who had visited him told me that F was asking when would I go and visit him. I was pleased to hear that.

Thus, on the way back from Taiping, I called him. Still no answer. I sent him a text then, asking him to hang in there, to take his medicine and that I would be visiting him soon. His reply was like a cut in my heart. He asked me not to visit him, that he was really sick and didn't have the energy to 'layan' me. I replied I didn't care. I didn't expect him to layan me and I was still visiting him whether he liked it or not. The second reply was a real blow. It cut really deep, tearing my heart into pieces. He pleaded me not to come. He was really sick and needed his rest. He wrote 'kalau kau datang jugak, memang aku menyesal'. He would regret it if I came! I am worried sick about him but he doesn't want me to be there! It took me a while before I replied to his text. I kept on asking myself, what happened? What did I do wrong? I was just a friend who wanted to see another sick friend. Why was it ok for others to visit him but not me? I thought P said he was expecting me? I was baffled. Perplexed. Be cool, Oren. Be rational. Maybe he doesn't want you to see him in that condition. Maybe he is embarrased. Even you couldn't look at yourself in the mirror when you were sick! He needs his rest. He wants you to understand that. Respect his wishes, Oren. Make him happy even if it means you are not.

F, I'm sorry for not being allowed to visit you. I want you to get well. I need you to be back on your feet again. I want us to dine at Johnny's like we have planned. I'll be waiting for that day..

flat

demam.... batuk teruk tahap gaban sampai rasa nak terkeluar anak tekak... lemah... badan rasa lemah sangat... dah 3 nak masuk 4 hari... hate it... hate being weak like this.. caught myself in the mirror... could hardly recognise that hideous and creepy looking lady! gosh, menakutkan... hmmm...dugaan tuhan... sabar je lah...

my dorothy

She's black, 30 something and a brilliant writer. I 'bumped' into her about a year ago at MPH. I was looking for some books to accompany me during my holidays in Gold Coast, then I 'saw' her.. on the rack looking rather sheepish.. Proud to be there, knew she was good but a bit afraid.. After all she was surrounded by hundreds of authors, some have made their fame when she was still a toddler. Yet there she was, gathering her courage, knowing it won't be long till people all over the world (err.. in this case, M'sia) talk about her and her excellent work.

I picked it up. The novel. The Cupid Effect. Read the blurb on the back cover. Found it interesting and intriguing. Just perfect as my trip-mate. I laughed, I cried, I felt her. The character sounded and felt familiar.. Just like the girl next door.. no no.. actually, just like me! I knew it there and then that Dorothy Koomson would be my favourite author. She is now officially my favourite author. ;D

I then keep track of Dorothy's career. Occasionally visit her website at www.dorothykoomson.co.uk . Bought her other books 'My Bestfriend's Girl', 'The Chocolate Run', Marshmallows For Breakfast' and just yesterday I bought her latest, 'Goodnight. Beautiful'. Haven't started reading it yet. Am keeping it for the Raya Haji's break. She's a great company especially during the holidays! I am soooo glad I found her! ;D

am scratching my head about it...

My friend 'Dubuk' told me a rather weird story. There was this girl who wanted to be a man. She dressed like a man, walked like a man, talked like a man and called herself a man's name. Let's just call this pengkid Ard. She was in love with a girl named Ween. A beautiful girl with gorgeous skin, cute but seductive boobs (hehe, i'm exaggerating on this part) very manja and girlish. She drove him err... her mad. Lucky for Ard, Ween was also falling for her/him. Ween just went gaga over Ard's babyface, manly gesture and cool attitude. But, guess what? Ween was actually a man who decided to become a woman!! When asked, Ard said she/he was attracted to Ween not because he/she was a man but due to his/her strong feminine attributions. Ween gave the same reason - because Ard was a charming MAN. I later said to dubuk that they still can get married for they are from different sex. She looked at me with her big eyes and big smile plastered on her face "you are right. But who should be the bride and who should be the groom?". I was taken aback for two moments. We then looked at each other and laughed our heart out. Gosh, i pity Ard and Ween. I wish them well (eventhough i don't know them and vice versa) but i'm pretty sure what they had was just a fling... weddings bells wouldn't be heard above their head unless they change their clothes or partners... hmm... weird... very weird indeed...