lean on me...

I had never watched 'LEAN ON ME'. I knew it was a good movie. Well, almost all Morgan Freeman's movies are good and worth watching. So, today, while I was browsing the movies on Astro, I saw that particular title queeing up for the next show. Got all my house chores done and then I was ready in front of the tube.

It was a very moving story. I was overwhelmed by the determination of Mr. Joe Clark (Freeman) as the principal to change his school and his students for the betterment no matter what the obstacles were. I cried watching the movie, boleh??? hehe.. semakin tua semakin vulnerable and touchy lah... hmm....

Anyway, below is one of Clark's brilliant speeches which I got from one of the websites:

Next time it may be you. If you do no better than they did (referring to the students cum gangsters and drug dealers who were just being expelled) , next time it will be you. They said this school was dead, like the cemetery it's built on. But we call our East Side teams "ghosts," don't we? And what are ghosts? Ghosts are spirits that rise from the dead. I want you to be my ghosts. You are going to lead our resurrection by defying the expectation that all of us are doomed to failure.
My motto is simple: If you do not succeed in life, I don't want you to blame your parents. I don't want you to blame the white man! I want you to blame yourselves! The responsibility is yours!!
In two weeks we have a practice exam and a minimum basic skills test on April 13th. That's a hundred and ten school days from now. But it's not just about those test scores. If you do not have these basic skills, you will find yourselves locked out! Locked out of that American Dream that you see advertised on TV -- that they tell you is so easy to get.

You are here for one reason -- one reason only: To learn, to work for what you want. The alternative is to waste your time and to fall into the trap of crime, drugs, and death. Does everyone understand that? Do all of you understand me?! Then welcome to the new East Side High!

bursts of laughter

I woke up feeling great and grateful to God for still breathing and having my heart beating. My numbers are adding up but I'm ok with it.. really! ;D

I drove to work knowing it was going to be a great day and I was right. Everybody at work not only wished me Happy Birthday, but they also sang me the song! I was overwhelmed! I smiled and laughed the whole day. Since they knew I love cheesecake very much, I received 5 slices of different cheesecake, boxes of chocolates (yeah, they are really good at making me grow bigger and bigger!), an organiser (which I appreciate very much coz my old one only has a few pages left) and some cards. Then I spent a couple of hours thanking each friend who sent me wishes through Facebook and sms.

Later in the evening, my friends picked me up for my 'burst'day dinner. We went to this new restaurant and ordered heaps od food! Boleh bagi makan satu kampung! We ate and talked and ate and bitched about stuff and laughed. It was good to be with dear friends on this special day.

I spent my 'burstday'day with bursts of laughter with smashing buddies... I feel great and blessed!

the eve...

My birthday is tomorrow... It falls on Saturday this year, so, I should be going out celebrate with friends tonite right? But I have to go to work tomorrow! Darn! So, what did i do tonite? Just a quiet and simple dinner with a friend whose birthday is today. Actually we had planned to celebrate our birthdays for years, but never seemed to find the chance to do so. Entah mcam mana, tetiba malam ni boths of us were free. So, we went out just now.. had dinner at SR. Because we had not seen each other for quite some time, we ate less but talked and talked and talked till we were the last one to leave the restaurant. It wasn't that late actually, but SR closes at 10pm. Then we headed home. That was all... hmm....

want the NEW thing...

I have to find a new interest la... a new hobby perhaps... a new love... a new life... I dont care what or who but it has to be new! I'm becoming more and more bored with almost everything.. I am somehow losing the excitement in everything.. Life has become a routine, thus I procrastinate more and more.. Life has become mundane, thus I enjoy it less and less... Nowadays I spend more time indoor than outdoor... spend more time staring at the PC screen than going out with friends.. spend more time with the idiot box than have good cups of coffee with buddies... Pathetic... Unhealthy... Sucks!

Change I must... Enjoy life more I should... Be happier I will..!!!

First, need to find that 'new' thing... what could it be? what would I want it to be? hmmm.....

Al fatihah..

Sebentar tadi baru je terima panggilan telefon dari seorang sahabat.. Abahnya yang menderita barah hati akhirnya menghembuskan nafas terakhir pada jam 6.50 petang. Pakcik Z dah 2-3 bulan terlantar di atas katil... 3-4 kali juga aku melawatnya.. Setiap kali pun menitis air mata melihat keadaannya yang semakin teruk saban hari.. Kali terakhir melawatnya perutnya dah semakin kembung kerana hati yang bengkak.. mata dan seluruh badan dah bertukar warna kuning.. Kepada sahabat aku tu, aku bisikkan kepadanya supaya bersedia untuk menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan, kerana melihatkan keadaannya aku tau, dah tak lama dah untuk dia pergi menemui penciptanya. Senang diucapkan dengan kata-kata, tetapi yang menanggungnya saja yang tahu kesedihan menyedari masa yang ada semakin berlalu pergi..

Pakcik Z aku anggap macam bapa aku sendiri.. Dia banyak membantu dan menyokong aku dan kawan-kawan dalam kerja amal kami. Dia seorang yang ceria dan selalu berjenaka. Seorang yang sangat disenangi dan sentiasa tersenyum. Kerana itu kehilangannya dirasai dan diratapi. Namun daripada dia terus menderita sakit, adalah baik dihentikan kesengsaraannya. Mungkin itulah yang terbaik untuk Pakcik Z.

Sahabat aku ini sangat rapat dan manja dengan abahnya ini. Selalu nyanyi karaoke di rumah bersama.. selalu dia mengikut abahnya ke kenduri-kenduri kawin sebab abahnya ada buat bisnes PA system dan karaoke kecil-kecilan. Memang susah untuk dia berpisah dengan abahnya. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi mata memikul. Tambahan pula abahnya pergi pada Hari Bapa Sedunia. Memang tragis. Aku doakan roh allahyarham Pakcik Z dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. Aku doakan sahabat aku ni dan ahli keluarganya dapat mengharungi hari-hari muka dengan penuh ketabahan da kekuatan. Aku doakan yang terbaik untuk semua. Amin.

To my Dad:

Happy Birthday Abah... Nothing compares to you... Love you heaps!!!

I dream of NZ

A friend just sent me a text informing me that she just got a scholarship to do her master. She might be doing it in New Zealand. She had two options actually, whether to do it in Australia or NZ. But I encouranged her to go to NZ instead... Well, simply because I wish to go there myself. Friends keep telling me that it is a beautiful country, but untill now, still takde rezeki to set my feet there.

I would love to do my master in NZ too. In fact, 2 years ago, I googled the courses that they have there and found one that I liked in the University of Auckland. They even sent me a catalogue on their university. I was really impressed and was ready to work my ass off to get the fund. However, something got in the way. And I had to choose. And I chose to postpone Auckland. There is no regret in my decision. I knew Auckland would always be there. I just hope I live long enough to be one of the residents there.

I'm still breathing... Alhamdulillah.. I guess the time has some for me to pave my way to NZ. Better do it now before it is too late.. before more wrickles on my face.. before my studying ability fades away.. ;D

syoknye cuti!!!

It was a nice break... no, no.. let me rephrase that. It was a syok one!

It was good to finally be able to spend time with my nephew and nieces. We didn't do much actually.. Just went for breakfast and lunches (I had my dinners with friends), watched tv together, did grocery shopping at the hypermarket and had little chats in the car on their way to their extra classes in school and tuition classes. Enough to pull us a little bit closer!

I enjoyed my dinner with Z who just got back from South Africa. Yup, he went to Cape Town and Johannesburg. Not only my eyes turned green when he told me 'bout his stupendous trip to those places, I actually could feel my whole body turning to that colour! I was extremely jealous and mad! Jealous becoz he went there, and mad becoz he didn't tell me in the first place. I got to know about it from Facebook!!! Some friend he is!

My outing with Sugar was fun! Even though our initial plan, which was to visit Huggies (the one who just lost his leg due to diabetes) was cancelled at the very last minute, we still enjoyed every ticking from 12.03pm t0 err.. 8.57pm! We started our outing with a steamy lunch with Mr. CEO (whom I fancy very much but I have to forget the idea of being romantically involved with him becoz he is, umm... taken). He was looking so darn handsome and yummy in his yellow shirt and goldish tie and that spiky hair style! I didn't eat much.. I was just drooling over him, boleh? hahaha... Sugar and I had our little sweaty adventure in Times Square - we forgot where we parked the car in that huge building! Actually it was my fault for I led Sugar to the wrong escalator.. Well, what can I say... I was busy talking to Mr. CEO that I got confused with the escalator! hehe.. Sorry, Sugar! But it was a good exercise wasn't it? We managed to burn some calories! hehehe... After the wonderful lunch, we hit Isetan in KLCC and Ms. Sugar cum Ms. Shopaholic bought herself two pairs of sexy shoes and 3 pairs of gorgeous tops and one elegant long skirt! Me? I was happy with just one nice top. But the trying part was really fun.. I believe we spent nearly TWO hours trying out ALMOST ALL (a bit exaggerating here, I know.. hehe) the outfits there! The salesgirl was very sweet and honest in giving her opinion on our fitting session. I nearly bought the same long skirt that Sugar bought, but the sweet salesgirl said "akak kata akak dah ada skirt hitam kan? so, tak payah la beli yang ni.." Boleh? Kalau bos u dengar dik, abis u...!!! But, thanks dik! Jimat duit akak! huhu! During dinner we were joined by Mr. Vogue. He updated us on Huggies' condition. Hmm... We really sympathised with him... Hope he's doing much better now... And to Sugar, WE SHOULD DO THIS AGAIN!!!

I managed to have a quick breakfast with Honey and her cute son at Dome, The Curve. We had tea together a few days before when she came to Perak. We didn't eat much but more on talking. And the same happened during breakfast. We talked and talked and talked.. hehe.. Girls are indisputably good at that!

On my last night in KL, my cousin took me out for a quick dinner and a movie. We ate Nando's quarter chicken, fries and salad in 11minutes je, boleh?!!! Well, that was because Terminator: Salvation was waiting for us! We left home quite early but we got stuck in traffic (KL, tau je la kan?), PLUS, we took quite some time finding the cinema in that gargantuan Pavilion! (Nape la diorang ni suka buat shopping complexes besar-besar sangat? Penat berjalan la woi!!!). I must admit that I wasn't thrilled when my cousin told me that we were to watch Connor and his friends fighting some machines, but the movie turned out to be good! Rasa macam tak berkelip je mata ni tengok citer tu... Those who haven't watched it, better book the tickets now!!! Highly recommended!

So, that was pretty much what I did during my 5 days stay in KL. Hope I could do it more often! With more friends hopefully!!! ;D