di bawah bayu..

Am off to Sabah again!

Moga sempat sampai airport dan selamat perjalanan.. Ameen.

Me vs mad cows : I WON!

Had another meeting with the cows. It was chaired by Future Boss. Not much was said this time around. I have decided not to bring up any issues in front of the cows anymore. I have to play my cards right. I either go straight to Big Boss or Future Boss from now onwards. Future Boss then touched on the calender thing. He said it was a great idea and more calenders would be printed out and everybody must take some with them and distribute on the next programme which would be held in Kedah. I smiled broadly. The cows said nothing. Hahahaha... itu baru pasal calender. If only they knew that Big Boss called me the other day and gave me some 'bonus' for my job well done, they would go beserk!! Hahahahahaha... Seronotttttnyeeeeee!

Hmm... I need new sets of lingerie la... So, It's shopping time this weekend! huhuuuu!!! ;D

Huh! Bangga giler!!!

Went to Penang with my female team. It was a part of the Big Boss' project. He had approved my idea of using the pocket calenders as part of the publicity plan. My girls and I stood by the entrance of the hall where the function took place. Pocket calenders in our hands and big sweet smile on our face. Some of the cows were there too, WITHOUT the calenders. Big Boss came. The cows hovered around him. Sickening! I waited for a while then walked to him and we shook hands. He then introduced me to some of his big shot friends. We went into the hall. It was chock-a-blocked with people. Speeches and more speeches then the main agenda- the introduction of the Big Boss himself and his poject. Later, during the refreshment, my girls and I mingled around and continued distributing the calenders and talked about our Big Boss and his project. A lot of big shots were there, you see, and most of them were Big Boss' rivals. The best part was, when Big Boss came to me while I was talking to one of his rivals. She was holding the calender and when she saw him, she immediately praised him for this calender idea. She said she had never thought of this as part of the publicity campaign. She, along with the others, used the old fashion way! Big Boss was pleased! I was smiling ear to ear! The cows were quiet! Muahahahaha...

I didn't know how to describe my feelings. I was glad, relieved, suppa duppa happy and feeling more motivated to work harder and prove to Big Boss and everybody (including those cows) that I am worth it! That I am not just some lady colleague who knew nothing like the one they had before me! I am better! That's right! I AM BETTER!

hate male chauvinist cows!

I am freaking mad!!!!! Those men, they think they are superior! That they are better and smarter! That we, women do not know anything! Piiiiiiiiirrrrahh!

I had a meeting with this group of male species. There were 8 of them and as for the girls' power, just me and Madam F (she's more like a makcik than a girl actually!). Anyway, the discussion was on this project initiated by my Big Boss (not that nice lady boss, this one is a He). Big Boss wasn't around, he just left everything to us to make sure it works. Everybody had to present their own report. When it was my turn, I pointed out some issues like our target group didn't really know our Big Boss (the project relies on how popular he is, u see). So I came up with an idea of distributing pocket calenders with his picture on it. They were not sure whether it was a good idea for it seemed 'cheap', so they said (grrrrr..). I argued but in the end they wanted to refer to the Big Boss himself.. Ok, fair enough..

Because I wanted the project to be a real blast, I had to touch on the weaknesses of the areas of others. Not that I wanted to 'berlagak pandai' or to show off, I just wanted us to rectify any problems in order to get the desired result. But these male species with the ego as big as titanic, couldn't handle it. Couldn't accept any criticism from a lady. They got reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally defensive and came up with 1001 lame stories. What pissed me off was when they, in return, attacked me in my area pulak! Those morons! Almost all of them asked me to just focus on my thing and not to interfere with theirs for they knew what they were doing! Those nitwits! Trying very hard to control my anger, I told them I was merely pointing out some issues regarding the project. They dismissed me just like that by changing the topic and adjourned the meeting. I packed my stuff and stormed out of the room, away from those male chauvinist nincompoops!

When I got back, I called Future Boss (he was at the meeting too). I told him that my intention was noble! I wanted the Big Boss' project to succeed. I was doing it for him, not me! But these idiots in the committee failed to see that! I am their teammate, for god's sake, not their rival! They were a bunch of disgustingly arrogant and stuck up rotten bananas! If they wanted me to mind my own business, I would do just that! I wouldn't care anymore! BUT, if the project failed, I said, don't blame me! Blame those cows!!! Future Boss, at first, was trying to back them up (men always fight for their kind even though the fault was obvious!), but after some yelling from me, he went quiet. That motivated me to add just a little bit more - I said "don't think that I am some kind of idiot who knew nothing. I might be new in this field but I am certainly not stupid! If they treat me like idiot, I will treat them like idiots!". He then admitted that those men were being unfair to me and asked me to just forgive and forget. Wah, senangnyaaaaaa!!!

Gosh, men will always be men! Don't expect them to be any different! They won't change! Because they have two heads (one above the collar and the other one in their pants!), they think they are superior! They have balls instead of brain, but they think they are smarter than us! Hellooooooooo!!! Takpe... satu hari nanti, diorang akan tunduk hormat pada aku!!! I'll make sure of that! Eeeeeee.... marahnya!!!

Alhamdulillah...

BARISAN NASIONAL HAS TAKEN OVER PERAK!!!!

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!


Syukur Alhamdulillah kerana Perak dilindungi yang Maha Esa...

Cukuplah 11 bulan tanpa arah tujuan.
Cukuplah 11 bulan maruah tergadai.
Cukuplah 11 bulan Melayu dipinggirkan.

Sekarang masa untuk bangkit semula! Moga Melayu tidak lagi alpa!

Hmmm.....

I had just finished photostatting some documents when the clerk came to me and told me that My Lady Boss wanted to see me. 'Okay', I said... Oh God, what now? We already had a short meeting about 2 hours ago discussing on a company that needed our help on a project. Since it didn't benefit any of us, we decided to turn them down. So, what else now? Hmm...

Still I put on a big smile while entering her office. She is a petite woman with gigantic spirit. She is committed to her work but never fails to be a fun boss. So far, she is the best boss I've ever had - warm, approachable, rational and... FUN!

Me : Knock! Knock! Mrs...... Morning. You wanted to see me?

LB : Oh yes, Oren. Morning. Come in. So tell me how was the course in Putrajaya?

Me : Oh, it was ok. They explained about... bla..bla..bla...

LB : Oh, ok. You know what? The government is allocating some money for...bla..bla..bla..

Me : I'll see what can be done. We should try to get the allocation. We need the money right?

LB : We don't mind money. (smiling)

Me : Absolutely (smiling). Is that all?

LB : (Took something under the file) This is for you.

Me : Angpau! Oh, Mrs..... Thank you! (grinning ear to ear). My first angpau for this year!

LB : So, Oren, will I hear wedding bells soon? (smiling mischievously)

Oh gosh, if only she knew what happened to me recently.

Me : Well, I'm also hoping for the wedding bells to ring, the sooner the better!

We both burst out laughing

LB : I wonder lah... I mean... I don't undestand why... You are... (Looking at me wonderingly. I could see the question 'HOW COME?' was vividly written on here forehead)

Me : I wonder about it myself! I also don't understand!

Again, laughter filled up the room.

I then politely thanked her for her generousity and left. I knew I was the only one who got an angpau from her. If my other single collegues found out about it, that's it! So, I had to keep it to myself.

And I knew what she meant when she wondered and did not understand. She believed people like me should have tied a knot. She liked me. My collegues enjoyed me. My students adored me. So, how come there wasn't any guy liking me for the same reasons and making me their bride? I don't have the answer really.... I'm baffled myself... To make it worse, some guy just broke my heart! Hmmm......

This is me... drifting away..

BEREFT - Robert Frost

Where had I heard this wind before
Change like this to a deeper roar?
What would it take my standing there for,
Holding open a restive door,
Looking downhill to a frothy shore?
Summer was past and day was past.
Somber clouds in the west were massed.
Out in the porch's sagging floor
Leaves got up in a coil and hissed,
Blindly struck at my knee and missed.
Something sinister in the tone
Told me my secret must be known:
Word I was in the house alone
Somehow must have gotten abroad,
Word I was in my life alone,
Word I had no one left but God.

I drifted...
I drifted, I did not walk
I drifted, I did not feel
I drifted, I did not breathe
I just drifted the whole day...